Ayanami Rei

Watashi.......... wa Yoshiko desu, kimi wa dare?

Sulphur Dioxide+Nitrogen Oxides

 Minerals......




Tuesday, November 27, 2001

testing


Sunday, November 25, 2001

HAHAHAHA! I AM RARE! >< SHADDUP SISTAH!>< *swears* Ahem, here is me! Mwhahhahha,

Healers present a calm and serene face to the world, and can seem shy, even distant around others. But inside they're anything but serene, having a capacity for personal caring rarely found in the other types. Healers care deeply about the inner life of a few special persons, or about a favorite cause in the world at large. And their great passion is to heal the conflicts that trouble individuals, or that divide groups, and thus to bring wholeness, or health, to themselves, their loved ones, and their community.

Healers have a profound sense of idealism that comes from a strong personal sense of right and wrong. They conceive of the world as an ethical, honorable place, full of wondrous possibilities and potential goods. In fact, to understand Healers, we must understand that their deep commitment to the positive and the good is almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. Set off from the rest of humanity by their privacy and scarcity (around one percent of the population), Healers can feel even more isolated in the purity of their idealism.

Also, Healers might well feel a sense of separation because of their often misunderstood childhood. Healers live a fantasy-filled childhood-they are the prince or princess of fairy tales-an attitude which, sadly, is frowned upon, or even punished, by many parents. With parents who want them to get their head out of the clouds, Healers begin to believe they are bad to be so fanciful, so dreamy, and can come to see themselves as ugly ducklings. In truth, they are quite OK just as they are, only different from most others-swans reared in a family of ducks.

At work, Healers are adaptable, welcome new ideas and new information, are patient with complicated situations, but impatient with routine details. Healers are keenly aware of people and their feelings, and relate well with most others. Because of their deep-seated reserve, however, they can work quite happily alone. When making decisions, Healers follow their heart not their head, which means they can make errors of fact, but seldom of feeling. They have a natural interest in scholarly activities and demonstrate, like the other Idealists, a remarkable facility with language. They have a gift for interpreting stories, as well as for creating them, and thus often write in lyric, poetic fashion. Frequently they hear a call to go forth into the world and help others, a call they seem ready to answer, even if they must sacrifice their own comfort.


Saturday, November 24, 2001

Ahhh.. I edited/deleted the entry.. So now, no repeats.. La la la... Aki aki.. I wont be mad if youre reading what I wrote in here.. Why should I? I'm the one who wrote it and if im mad at you for reading it, then its MY fault and im being stupid. I dont really put all of my thinkings here.. Maybe I only put 45% of what i think, feel, blahs here, *shrugs*, but I do know that.. I keep most of what think, feel, yonky blahs to meself. Im not very open.. I guess. o.O;... I miss Chiro and Isei... i_i *snifs sniffs* *hugs Yun, Aki and Hime* WHERE ARE YOU GUYS HUH HUH?! i____i Going off now.. Ja..


Saturday, November 24, 2001

ArGh.. I refreshed my blog twice and didnt get the new entry, so I made another one that is almost the same as the prev, then after i posted the lamost same entry, i saw the original! Damn bullock poop>< Wasted time.. i_i Ah well. My entries suck, *nods gravely* I still need sleep.. aghh...


Saturday, November 24, 2001

ArGh ArGh ArGh. Hmm.. Is the gbook.nu aint working? Cant get to the site, got other sites fast, but not gbook, noooo.. Went surfing, not surfing the waves mind you, da sites. Was influenced by my sister. Im not a kid who's easily influenced=P So there. La La La, i want Frutips, was influenced by my dad. He's now addicted to frutips. Want each-a-cup Blue Coral Ice Blended Bubble Tea i_i. Havent drink a bubble tea for yonks. Yonks yonks yonky yonks, love that wordy, wordy wordy wordy. >< STOP REPEATING! STOP ECHOING! ARgH ARgH ARgH.

La La La, Tenken was being scary because he's being nice to me. Nice people are scary. Why? I dont know, maybe because I dont know what to do at them. Im used to mean and evil people, credits given to my family, my classmates, my teachers and my acquantainces. WHy did I meet so many mean people and like some of them? Im mean too, sometimes, but I do feel all crummy and crappy so I apologize. My sister went to sleep, she opened the door, hugging her pillow, closed the light then the door and blah blah blah. I have nothing to write.. i_i Sad yoshi, ssaaaaaddd...

I should get to sleep, i slept every little in the last 3 days. &^@&^&@#^#%#%#^. Ahem. im getting headaches! HEADACHES! Almost as worse as the headaches I get when I TRY to read BM books, storybooks, not me BM textbook, I read english storybooks behind the BM textbook anyway. ALWAYS did that, hid the book when my teacher is nearby, bad me baaaaddd..

Almost slept beside me mom's laptop yesterday, KM woke me up by walking quietly but noisily. ArGhh, sweet sweeettt sleepppp.. >< Eeeeee, since when did I start using the word 'SWEET'?! Only Aki and Yun and Hime uses that wordy>< Eeeeeeee.... Frutips.. Pepsi.. I dont really like Coke. PEPSI! PEPSI! SPRITE! 7-UP! Aghhhhhh, *rolls on the floor, clutching me head and stomach* headaches... HUNGRY.. Want one leg kicking meal, aggghhhhh... Wanna see Harry Potter.. Want Chocolate Frogs again.. Bertie Botts sucks... Got a TOMATO flavoured jelly bean.. Agghh, putted them in da fridge, went to eat it again after 3 days of ignoring it, its gone. Maybe me Dad ate it, ha ha to him if he got some icky flavoured jelly beans. He deserves it, if he stole me Bertie Botts><

I went using the sorting hat, got HUFFLEPUFF at first, eew eew ickios bleargh regurgitated frogs slime soups eyeballs butts>< Then got RAVENCLAW. Am I CLEVER? I got top 15, yeah yeah, ddnt really study. WHat if I studied? Maybe i shall get top 10, heh heh. WHen i was in primary 3, I used ta study for me 3rd lang test from 7++pm to almost 11pm, got 47/50 in the test! WOO WOO! Hmm, maybe im clever, ah heck, who cares? I dont, maybe my parents do.. Should ta study for my Maths! See, i studied VERY little for my Maths in the midterm, and got 89 for the exam and I studied NONE for the last, and got 85!!! The highest was 89, AGH, bullock poop><

Agggggghhhh.. Im feeling awpul awpulll awppuullll.... No sleep, not sleepy, must.. must.. surf.. sites... Oh, I havent done anything for my project, not one effing thing. Ah well, there still a month and some few eeks. When will school starts anyway? I lost the paper that tells me when is the day to buy books, when will I start learning and when will I die of the learning-ness and go home, when will school starts and blahs blahs. And also, WHERE IS THE REPORT BOOK?! ITS LOST! LOST! All because of Mom not putting it away safely>< WHAT SHALL I DO?! Agghh aghhh.. Going off da pitas, eyb-hub... *falls down, squished me eye, dlattened me teeth, swollened my arm, shrunk me legs, and big-ened me head and dies..* Jj..aa.. nee...


Thursday, November 22, 2001

Ahhh... Im tired.. Slept for only an hour. I slept at about 4.10am, reading me library books, then was woken up by KM at about 5++am>< Its 6.29am now or so it says in my mom's comp.... Happy Birthday To You Cik Zahra. Pity youre not gonna be in the office until 03122001..

Is my entries really depressing? Oh my butt[o.O;;], I cant believe i wrote depressing entries here! I should have keep them pe-rai-vaaate.... >< Should have post only happy happy entries. Musnt bother anybody with what me's thinking>< *bonks head* SOrry Atlie^^;; NO CRY OR DO DEPRESSING THINGS AFTER READING MY BLOGS!

Ahhh... Today, Harry Potter the movie is out.. Cant watch, so sad, sad sad yoshi.. saaad i_i... Titanic's being aired in my local tv, hah, what a *TOOOOT* show. Romance blahs blahs kissing blahs blahs love blahs blahs. I prefer mystery, sci-fi, ET, IT, adventure, animes[NOT HENTAIS!><] and blahs blahs blahs to ROmance, Love, and blahs blahs blahs. *scartches face* Where the bull is Shadow anyway?

Going off in me pitas, bye! I miss you too ATlie! Evil father you have.. eevuuullll ><


Sunday, November 18, 2001

Saw Aki's entry about the Emode and blahs blahs, so went to Emode.com to take some tests.

[What's your flavour] Mmm ... blueberry! Tangy and sweet, you're as fresh as a mountain sunrise and as natural as homemade jam. If you were a Broadway musical, you'd be The Sound of music — we can just picture you twirling for joy in an Alpine meadow. Best with breakfast cereal and pancakes, you're simple and refreshing, with just a touch of tartness to give you an edge. Always a favorite, people can't get enough of your spontaneous nature and easy-going approach to life. Who wouldn't be attracted to your sporty, summery flavor? Fun-loving and genuine, you're a truly tasty treat.

[What's your colour?] You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart. [According to Emode.com, 19% of the Emode members are brown, and 23% of the world are brown... o.O]

[the Aura Test] We don't need a psychic to tell us that you're giving off a Gold vibe. You couldn't ask for a better color — a glistening gold aura is as good as it gets. A lively blend of yellow and orange, gold people are happy, playful, energetic, sensitive, and generous. Always up for adventure, you'd give a friend in need the shirt off your back. You're spiritual, too — all those halos in old paintings aren't colored gold by coincidence. Almost childlike in the carefree, joyful way you live your life, you're popular and outgoing with your large circle of friends. Chances are you're so full of light and energy that you sometimes find it hard to sit still and chill out. Instead, you're constantly looking for excitement, no matter how risky or impulsive the occasion. Happy-go-lucky and always laughing, you truly are as good as gold. Its the same as Aki's! Argh argh... Erm, no offense!

[What type are you?] Hippie Chick, The '60s are over, but their legacy of peace and love lives on in you, a genuine, granola-loving Hippie Chick. A fan of flowing skirts, Birkenstocks, and all-natural organic foods, you probably wear your hair long and loose so you can always go with the flow. The rhythm of your life is definitely laid-back and groovy. Genuine and unpretentious, you're a free spirit with a big heart. A Dharma looking for her Greg, after winning your guy's heart, you'll take him on a pilgrimage to Woodstock and make him wear flowers in his hair. And he'll love every minute of it. All in all, you've got just the right mix of idealism and social conscience to keep any guy trippin' over you, right into your arms. [WHAT THE?! I HATE THE 60-80s, and maybe the 90s music. The.. erm, style is okay, but i do not like letting me hair flow, i prefer keeping it as a ponytail>< Natural organic? Hambug. *grumbles grumbles* Okay, so maybe 75% of it is kinda right.. >< But i refuse to call mysel hippie! *shudders*]

[Teen Celebrity Match] You're self confidence has always drawn people to you. Maybe that's the way to lock-in Freddie Prinze Jr. as your celebrity match.

There's nothing junior about this fresh Prinze. Despite making his cinematic mark with teenie-bopper love stories, Freddie shows a certain maturity as he shrugs off critics and his famous heritage. If you love the all-American type, hanging with Freddie would be so easy.

The first thing you might notice (after his perfect smile) is how confidant he is without being cocky. There's no hiding for this hunk. Dining at public places is surprisingly stress-free as he makes time for his adoring fans. And if you're a sports lover too, your dream date could include a night at the batting cages, a couple frames of bowling (he has his own ball), and maybe a round of mini-golf.

But you might have to wait a while for this date to happen. This summer catch is engaged to the vampire slayer herself Sarah Michelle Gellar. Oh well, you can always dream. Or maybe challenge Buffy to a slayer duel. [WHAT THE (@&*^^!^?!!!]

[What's your celebrity look?]  Romantic Look

With the eyes of a Botticelli and the smile of a DaVinci, you're the latest embodiment of the Romantic Look. It's your fascinating combo of dreamy innocence and smoldering desire that always keeps 'em guessing. Your tender, inner nature comes out in the soft colors and flowing fabrics of your clothes. But just because you can pull off the pastel eye shadows, pouty glossed lips, and the wide-eyed look of a kitten, everyone knows that you're no angel. Once you slip into something sexy for the evening and dab a little fragrance behind the ear, you're capable of just about anything. Mysterious as a cat, you share the same romantic allure as Nicole Kidman, Penelope Cruz, and Andie MacDowell. And just like them, your sincere, inner beauty always manages to shine just as brightly as your striking appearance. [ARGH! NO!!! I HATE MAKEUP! i_i WHY?! WHY IS IT SO LIKE THIS?! WHY~~~~]


Wednesday, November 14, 2001

Hmmm.. Thought you were so scared of me getting caught or whatever. Then if you are, why talk to me? Yeah yeah, maybe youre thinking about not talking to me for eternity, well suit yourself, i dont give a hell about it. Why am I like this? Im in a bad mood if you cant guess..

I want to go out and hug my cat i_i. She on the balcony with her friend.. Talking i guess, i heard meow-ings. Gave them some minced meat^^

Ah well, ja ne. Im still in a bad mood tho. I miss Chiro.. i____i


Tuesday, November 13, 2001

I wrote the entry for today in me private booky. But now, I think im just gonna type it here. No need ta copy. And, to this certain somebody. I dont think youre a coward. Youre brave. Youre smart. You let down your pride. You realized things. You have a lotta common sense.

Freedom.. freedom.. You told me yourself that I have the freedom to go on the internet and do things that I want. But I cannot go outside and do things I want. I think you told me that when I went cycling around my neighbourhoood. So, you substituted the freedom in reality for freedom in virtuality. No, id rather have the freedom of reality. Then you said to me just now that if i want to go to the internet, I can, but I cant chat, or in other words, instant messages anybody. Then what about the freedom of virtuality you told me? I wont go to any porn sites, no i wont. Im not gullible. And also you told me that im not a child anymore, but why do you treat me like one? Maybe I do act like a child. Maybe in the behaviour, but you dont know what I think, you dont know what I feel. ut also, it doesnt mean that if I act like a child, im stupid, im gullible, im gonna get involve easily, im gonna get influenced easily. No, that was the old me. I shall not get influence easily. I do think you know. Im not stupid you know. I do have common sense you know. I do have willpower you know. Why, why do I talk to my friends? Maybe because they dont treat me as you do. Maybe they dont treat me like a child. They treat me like my friend. And they treat friends not as a child, i dont know how to explain, but its better, much more better. I am sick of being in this 'jail'. I want to get out. I want to smell the air. I want to fell freedom. At least some freedom. WHy? Why are you overprotective? You love me? Maybe. If you do, then let me smell the fresh air, let me out of the 'jail'. Let me go.

I yearn to be free.

Changing the 2nd entry..
Monday, November 12, 2001

Okay, I dont love almost everyone. I was kinda insane when i wrote that. I love some persons. Some people. Somethings. and God. ahhahaha. G-Bye




Monday, November 12, 2001

You know, I was bored yesterday night. I was lying on me bed, prepared to go to sleep, but cant. So i started making fart sounds with me arm+mouth. Hee hee. I guess that's what Koichi does whenver he's lonely. i_i I missed today's episode of the Todomo brothers. NOOOOOOO!! Ahem, I shall continue talking with Tenken who is currently not boring right now. Hee hee, no offense! And also, change the Love for friends into Like! Ja! ^_^


Sunday, November 11 2001/Monday, November 12, 2001

[Wrote on the 11th, published on the 12th]

When I read what I wrote years ago, when I look at the actions I had done, the works, the prized works which I had treasured years ago, and am still treasuring them. I smile[o.O;;], smiling at my foolishnes.. at my.. immatureness...?

I have grown up a lot[^^;;], but some people think that I'm not acting my age. Is there a certain behaviour for every age? And what if I didnt act that certain behaviour? Am I abnormal? Unnatural? An 'alien'? Why? Why can a person, like for an example, 32 years old, act like a 5 years old? Why cant he? Is it so wrong? Why cant he do that but still have a right mind? Its not a sin si it? If I turn 13, then I hafta love PINK [EF THAT COLOUR!], scream crazily at things I love? Become a teenybopper? Say 'cool', 'rad', 'awesome', etc? Pardon moi while I die then resurrect, but whats so GOOD about thet behaviour?! So parents know whow to deal with this kind of kids? There shall be no INDIVIDUAL. No ORIGINALITY if everyone follows a certain behaviour at a certain age! Che-eh.

I loev Roswell. Mwhahhahahha. ^_^ Going off! JAA!


Saturday, November 10, 2001

I shall confess my loves!
Milo, Corn Chips, Tortillas, Buritos, Slam Dunk, Rurouni Kenshin, Steam Detective, Generator Gawl, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Taiho Shicauzo, Cooking Master Boy, Cowboy Bebop, Greenwood, Ranma, Kare Kano, the Mee Goreng instant, my pillows, my plushs, my family, my friends, almost everyone I know, [personal], tare pandas, computers, blah blah sbags, nature, cats, pandas, blah blah vblahs and God!! i.i


Saturday, November 10, 2001

I have finally updated my blog. Happy now dear fans? Okay, that was.. arrogant?

Actually, I dont have anything to talk about I guess. I mean, why spill all your personal problems on a public web? Isnt that stupid? And if you still want to, fine, I wont give a damn to you and the nosy people.

Shadow.. Shadow.. Do you like accusing people? Why? Does it gives you the satisfaction? The sick satisfaction? Maybe you accused Jake of the 'sick' satisfaction because you feel like that. Do you feel triumph when people are hurt? Do you like it when people are cracked up because of you? Do you want people to hate you? Do you want to feel hatred, hostility around you? Are you just like Lev? I do know Lev accuses people. Did you pick up that habit from Lev? Dear, dear, of all the habits from people you could pick from, you picked Lev's. Or maybe Lev picked it from you? Is that an accusation? I was just theorizing, is that so wrong?

Im going off now.. Mom's mad. Ja Ne.

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